Tuesday, November 1, 2011

11/01/2011 12:15:00 AM - ,,,,, No comments

Midnight Talk

recent Top 5 SITES I love to sit.
*nongkrong thu bahasa inggris gaulnya apa ya? maksudnya mau bilang 5 situs yang paling sering ditongkrongin sekarang*

1. Tumblr.com
2. Wattpad.com
3. user.Blogspot.com
4. kaskus.us
5. any soacial network. u name it.

just love it.
tumblr ... karena suka nemuin foto-foto & quote-quote bagus buat di-steal. *eh? just like I've told you in my previous post la~~ oh yeah! my page is here
wattpad ... based on my reading hobby. it's quite fun, relaxing, and randomly found a cute cast like *uhuk* Gaspard. yeah ... thanks to watty writer who introduced me to him. nyeheheh.
blogger ... of course i still like blogwalking. blogs i follow the most are on my right colloumn, I FOLLOW them. read their stories, love some of their styles, anything \(^o^)/
kaskus ... bagaikan koran dengan berbagai berita. mulai dari yang paling A1 sampe paling HOAX! :D
facebook, twitter ... still need it la~~ walpoun udah ngrasa ga mood juga mondar-mandir di facebook. a lot of fake people & personalities! mw remove tapi malasnyah!

it's 00.05 am. welcome November ... :)

and I kinda miss my sister & brother a lot ......... :(
oh yeah, and my childhood friend too.


i love the video so much!!!! DADDY, I MSHIED EUUWW!!

Monday, October 31, 2011

10/31/2011 11:49:00 PM - ,,,, No comments

bapak tua

what now?
hello .. assalamu'alaikum.

i really feel tired, suffocated and hopeless. *caffein effect

sbenernya udah lama nyimpen crita ini di kepala. slama ini slalu keinget, kalo lagi enek-eneknya mikirin idup *alah lagunyaa .. kek paling mikir*

tapi beneran deh, kalo lagi ngresulo, ngeluh, keingetan bapak tua itu, mimiknya, sikapnya, posturnya ... I feel the most "biadab" person in the world.

it was about 3 months ago. stase anak. melati. 
aku disuruh anter laringoskop untuk bayi. 'the baby must be in apneu state' i guessed. dan bener. waktu ke IGD, residen anestesi udah mau ngamuk gara-gara ngliat aku masi bengong megangin kotak set laringoskop. "cepetan mana laringoskopnya!!! bayinya udah mau mati!!" setress. pasti dah, residen distress :D
dan si residen makin mau ngamuk, waktu tau ternyata kluarga si bayi (ada bapaknya, pamannya, & kakek si bayi) belum tanda tangan persetujuan penggunaan ventilator. i forgot what's the issues, tapi yang jelas waktu itu masalahnya, ... si keluarga dilema. waktu tau bayinya apneu (ga napas spontan) dan dikasi tau kalo salah satu cara biar bisa bisa idup itu pake alat bantu napas (ventilator. u name it.), mreka pasti tanpa ba bi bu langsung setuju & bilang "IYA!!" karena mereka ngeliat harapan 'hidup' di situ. without even knowing, kalo pun bayinya selamat, kemungkinan besar si bayi juga bisa hidup dengan bermacam-macam defek. si bayi itu persalinan-nya susah, & kepalanya was not in a good shape.
but u know what? waktu dijelasin kalo pake ventilator itu harus bayar min 500ribu/hari, suddenly they went silent. alat buat masang udah di tangan, tinggal jawab iya atau nggak. waktunya singkat. keputusan: iya pasang ventilator, tapi nggak punya biaya sama sekali. atau nggak usah pasang, .. u know what will happen lah. the baby will dead. and that's when i see it ..
wajah si kakek. sikap si kakek. bingung. berharap banyak. pasrah. didesak buat mikir cepat. ambil keputusan cepat. bapak itu .. dengan wajah kuyu nya, peci miring, batik lusuh, celana kain lusuh, sandal jepit, ... kedua tangan nya ngremas lipatan celana. hopeless. mimiknya? jangan tanya mimiknya!! mimiknya itu yang buat aku ga kuat lama-lama di situ & akhirnya ninggalin IGD sambil nahan air mata! (*kok si kakek? iya .. bapak nya si bayi masi muda banget. im sorry no offense, but he looked like he didn't care. at all.)

emangnya si kakek ini minta dihadapkan situasi kek tadi? hidup & mati cucunya? kebahagiaan anak wanitanya?
tua. bapak tadi itu tua. satu hal yang selalu bikin luruh. i don't like to see any event where old man suffer!
see? how a (new) life was depend on money's hand. how ironic!
but that's life. itulah ujian. itulah cobaan. in a bad way but for good.
makanya.. rasanya kok egois yah. kalo ngedumel sama masalah sendiri. nggak seberapa. cuma masalah ego aja. bandingin coba sama masalah si bapak ini? aku nggak bisa komentar banyak lagi. terlalu sumpek, terlalu ngenes kalo mau komentar.

the baby actually was in a really bad condition when (s)he born. even bayi nya pake ventilator, mungkin juga ga bertahan lama. in comma state, I mean. so how's the story end? yea ... the baby already became an angel in Heaven. A really beautiful & cute angel beside Allah.

buat si bapak, semoga ... bapak benar-benar orang yang baik, orang yang bersabar, mendapat hikmah dari peristiwa itu, dilapangkan hatinya, keluarganya ... dan semoga di akhirat nanti, menjadi salah satu orang yang paling dimuliakan di sisi Allah. amin ...

Friday, October 7, 2011

10/07/2011 03:44:00 PM - , No comments

Treasure from Tumblr.

beberapa hari kemarin, autis nongkrong di tumblr
di situ itu ... banyak foto & quote-quote bagus buat dicomot dikoleksu akhirnya dari situ akhirnya tau, sense art ku ngarah nya kemana.

aku suka foto-foto yang modelnya nggak keliatan mukanya. contohnya, foto-foto ini:






anykind of skinship :D jangan diliat napsu nya, tapi liat affection between these couple ya ...






and sort of .. pics like this










all pics taken from tumblr.com (lupa account nya punya siapa aja)

10/07/2011 03:43:00 PM - , No comments

My Favourite Quote :)



Dan demikianlah semuanya harus terjadi,
karena memang semua harus terjadi..

Hidup ini terus berlanjut..

Kita semua pernah mengkhianati dan dikhianati, Setia dan tidak setia..
Kita semua pernah merasakan cinta di tempat tertinggi,
kita lalu merasakan terjatuh karena kesalahan kita sendiri,
kita tidak mati tapi lukanya membuat kita tidak dapat berjalan seperti dulu lagi..




*Quotes from movie
Taken from - From Bandung With Love

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

9/28/2011 08:16:00 AM - ,, No comments

What a Life

hidup ini indah buat gue kalo:

1. bisa berangkat siang tiap hari

*it's okay bangun pagi, tapi kalo harus riweuh" buat berangkat pagi, masuk jam 7, ouch ... it's a torture for me, heheh .. nenek moyangkuu .. maafkan akuu ... *

2. tiap hari bisa makan steak :D

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*di posting saat lagi ngidam makan double chicken steak*

3. have a big brother like Gaspard Ulliel *KYAAAA!!!!!!*


I want a creature like this to wake me up every morning "Wake up! You little brat!!"

I want him to scold at me everytime I pout my mouth,  angry. aawww...


I want a brother like him to pick me up everyday I go back from hospital ^^

I want this creature to hug me and caml me down everytime I sad & cry, "Don't worry sis, I'll kill that guy!"

Nyahahahahaha .. mimpi siang bolong --a

3. selalu berkata, di setiap cobaan & berkah yang didapat

"Alhamdulillah ... Insha Allah ini baik ... :)"

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

8/16/2011 07:21:00 PM - , 1 comment

babies PARADE!!

assalamu'alaikum ... :)

eh? did I ever told you how much I love babies?
oh well ... I love them a LOT!!

jadi minggu ini, sudah minggu ke-8 saya di stase anak, pediatri :)
minggu-minggu awal lalu rasanya lamaa & beraaattt skali. trutama waktu di melati (bangsal NICU). uuhhh .. capeknya lahir batin. belom lagi ada masalah di luar 'ilmu' bangsal.

perang batin sama paramedis, temen seperjuangan. but I passed??!!
because of you all, babies^^ (BIG HUG)

bayi dimana-mana!
di mana-mana bayi!!

gendong sana! gendong sini!
bedong! cium! (diem-diem --")

here we go! bayi" favorit ku! yang lainnya share di fb ajaa .. kebanyakan :p


tidur paling sensual!

my fav baby s crying!!! so cute!!!

my fav baby tryin to smile :)

"c'mon.. stop taking picture of me"

sshhh ... she's sleeping

before she's going home :(


aduh .. liat de bubunya .. kek model!!

pipinyaaa!!!!

ouww ... the baby stare at me!! ini nih yang bikin mupeng pengen punya anak --"

baby sinchan!! ahahahah

UV-bathing! ciyee berjemur ya sayang? ^^


dan sekarang. aku kangen banget sama bayi-bayi ini :'(

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

8/09/2011 06:01:00 AM - , No comments

Beautiful Prayer

Akan ada hari dimana Allah menjadi saksi saat kau lingkarkan ikatan suci Mitsaqan Ghalidza dijariku yang kau pilih, walau aku tak sesempurna istri sang Nabi.
Akan ada hari dimana kulingkarkan pula sumpah setia dijarimu yang kupilih sebagai Imamku, yang Surga-Nya tak bisa kumasuki tanpa ridho darimu.
Akan ada hari dimana kugelar sajadahku dan sajadahmu, kita bersujud dalam sepenggal waktu yang sama dan Doa yang terucap darimu ku Amini juga dalam hati 1 shaf di belakangmu.
Akan ada hari dimana selalu kunanti alunan Tausyiahmu sebagai pengantar tidurku dan rasa syukurku karena-Nya telah memberi cinta yang kutujukan padamu.
Akan ada hari dimana kau dengungkan Adzan dibalik daun telinga sosok mungil yang kelak mewarisi sebagian parasku dan sebagian tingkahmu.
Akan ada hari dimana keteladananmu akan mengiringi tugasku sebagai Madrasah bagi keturunan kita.
Akan ada hari dimana kita akan melihat nisan dan memesan sepetak lahan berdampingan untuk nanti ketika esok kita tak ada lagi.
Akan ada hari dimana salah satu dari kita menghadap Ilahi, dengan pendamping hidup yang soleh dan soleha yang setia menemani sampai di akhir perjalanan nanti, dan aku akan sabar menanti.
Semoga Allah megizinkan Sakinah bersamamu hadir suatu hari nanti hingga kelak dikumpulkan kembali sampai di Syurga-Nya nanti.

Amin .....


I was read that BEAUTIFUL prayer from my friend's display picture on BM. Subhanallah ... T____T

Semoga Allah meridhoi dan melancarkan perjalanan ini ... amin.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

8/07/2011 10:21:00 AM - ,,, No comments

what they do to make me admire them??

-in the middle of doing my presentation project for tomorrow-

ah yehhh ... too many things distract what I'm doing, as always. ehee ...
so .. I was like doing this pro-walk (facebook)(profile-walking) .. instead of blog walking. cause it seems like I have a lot of freeeee time! -- IT SEEMS ya!!!--


actually I wasn't this type of person, who cares what others do. anymore. (means that I usedddd to be :p ehee)
so that's what i culd do to prevent envying other successions!
but two days ago ......... finally my eyes drop to this guy profile. my so-humble-perfectionist-selfish-complex-etc friend: Radit :)

he's now in Europe doing some clerkship-exchange program.

I knew about it before. but yes, I don't care. at first.
but yesterday ... when I saw the pic he uploaded at his profile, showing him with his nu friend there, wearing that OK(scrub)-uniform. i was like ... "subhanallah... he got it..." yes. I'm speechless.

this pic! yes this one. taken from his facebook :p which one is he? just guess laa ...


just so you know, I still have that obsession till now. it wasn't buried yet: study abroad, breathe somewhere over the world, watch & live in other culture, nu experience ... that dreams ...
I tell you: I still keep it.

and somehow ... when I see my own friend can do what I dream that I've kept for my whole life ... I become: respect & admire him/her more.

I remember, back to that day, when I first saw him. In the middle of the crowdness, when the head of our faculty said that we, who were (NEARLY) accepted from SMPTN, were not entirely accepted. eh??? yes. that time.
Radit then spoke in the name of us, new student candidates, in front of all parents and the student's guardian, that he will blow this matter up to public, that our faculty had broke the national education law. that he will sue our faculty for creating some harmful rules for the new student, who actually should ACCEPTED automatically, but it weren't.

That time, I thought that he's not one of us, the new student candidates. i thought he was a student's guardian, or just someone. but when I realize who is he, ... that time ... I knew .... :

he would be SOMEONE important, influential and somewhat .. inspiration to the other student in our school, and the other medical school in Indonesia. and I'm right, people!!^^ i just knew.

so ... back to where we are, I'm asking to my self: what they do to make me admire them?

FYI, there's also 1 person, whom I envy respect her, since I was in high school. I couldn't tell who is she. because ... I was like, her secret-admirer. uh!! she's also my inspiration. she's smart, she's rich and she's beautiful (ah demm ... beautiful-rich-smart??? that's too perfect combination!!!)
First, I was underestimated her for being beautiful and rich. because too many girls here are like that. they beau & rich but the brain is useless, sorry.
but this girl?? it was that moment, when I saw the result of prestigious university entrance test trial. We have the same option: med school of course. we both didn't accepted. but: her name was 1 rank ABOVE my name!!!!! 


it changed everything. it changed the way I see her. yes she's smart. but she's also humble! i hate it, she's too perfect for a beau girl I knew. ehee ... I secretly 'followed' her life from that time. not intensely followed, just want to know what she's doing, what she have, what s her achievement. and yes, once again, from my point of view, she's 'above' me now :) 

"yes I still admire you miss ... have a good work and a great life in Sing's!"


so what they actually do? 


and once again, when yesterday i think about this two great people, a news came down. from my closest person. my guy :)
he just finished his course in Bandung, and the final rank have came out:

he? he is on the BIG THREE!!!


I was so excited and happy and soooooooooooo much proud of him!
I'm so proud of him.


Congratulation Love ..... :) *Big Hug!
Instead of admiring others, I admire this guy a lot.
ehee .... there's no words anymore to describe how I'm so grateful that Allah have sent someone like him for us. he might feel that he's nothing, but for us ... he's everything :)


so, again. what they do???


they are smart.




they have that humble-charisma.




they all (already) have vision. they know what they have to do now, tomorrow. five years later. ten years later. THEY HAVE THE CAPABILITY to know.


they are loved by me & others.




they are my inspiration :)




thank you for reading this entry.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

8/06/2011 07:04:00 PM - ,, 3 comments

Teori 5 orang

sore ini, sambil ngabuburit ala Ines :)


nonton My Sister's Keeper  .. and I was like ... waaaa T______T cry a river!


always like that ya, evrytime I watched family movie.
move my heart a lot, how I treasure my family a lot.



so yesterday I was re-post this entry I got from kaskus, and post it on FB. 


"Teori 5 Orang"

Teori 5 Orang Sebuah Filosofi dr Charles Schulz, penulis “Peanuts” comic strip.

Kita tidak perlu menjawab semua pertanyaan.., bacalah dan dapatkan pesan berharga.

1. Nama 5 org terkaya didunia - Bill Gates? Donald Trump?
2. Nama 5 pemenang tropy - tropy apaan ni?
3. Nama 5 miss america terakhir - meneketempe ...
4. Nama 5 org pemenang nobel -  ... rrrrr .....
5. Name 5 org pemenang Academy Award- .... don't care ....

Sulit mengingatnya kan..
Intinya adalah, tidak ada seorangpun dari kita yg masih mengingatnya.
Tepuk tangan telah sirna, penghargaan beralih.
Pencapaian telah dilupakan...

Ada kuis lain, lihatlah bagaimana anda mengerjakan yg ini :

1. Nama 5 guru yg telah membantu anda dalam perjalanan sukses anda disekolah : Ust Isra', Pak Imam, Bu Dewi, Pak Lulus, Pak Oih :D
2. Nama 5 teman yang membantu anda dalam waktu sulit : a lot. more than 5 yeaaahhh .... banyaaaak!
3. Nama 5 org yg mengajarkan anda sesuatu yg berharga : prinsipnya, semua orang yang saya temui selalu mengajarkan sesuatu bagi saya, and I say thanks a lot for them. but the most --> ibu, ayah, non, yosefin, mas mono
4. Nama 5 org yg membuatmu merasa dihargai dan spesial : ega, mas mono, nek yosi, unyil, & more ...     
5. Nama 5 org yg anda sangat menikmati waktu bersamanya : ayah, ibu, nona, ade', mas mono

Lebih mudah..?

Pelajarannya : orang2 yg membuat perbedaan didalam hidupmu bukanlah orang2 yg memenangkan penghargaan....,
Tapi mereka adalah orang2 yg peduli dan mengasihi anda dengan tulus...

Sehingga, hargailah setiap saat yg anda miliki bersama org2 tersebut...terutama keluarga.
Karena waktu selalu berjalan, dan kita tidak pernah tau apa yg akan terjadi ketika orang2 tersebut dipindahkan Tuhan dr sisi kita....

untuk semua orang yang telah mengukir ingatan di kepala saya, untuk semua yang tidak sekedar hadir di hidup saya, tetapi memberikan bantuan, pelajaran dan penghargaan untuk saya, anda semua SPESIAL & SANGAT BERARTI :) *big HUG

waktu-waktu yang saya miliki & saya habiskan bersama anda, adalah waktu-waktu paling berharga yang saya lewati.

syukur Alhamdulillah .... semoga kebaikan yang Anda lakukan untuk saya, ikhlas, ... dibalas oleh Allah SWT dengan sesuatu yang lebih indah ... amin.

Another time when de' hafizh & non were here, gather as one family. We are .... :)

I Love my family a lot! A lot like a lot, a lot!!!


Yeah ... That's it!!




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